What I feel is real, but it's also a pointless waste of time. They don't feel the same way and they never will because it's extremely inappropriate.

[Kurt feels like his heart just stopped beating. For a second there it sounds almost like Older Kurt figured it out. But maybe he's just imagining things. Maybe all he has to do is toss out another name and that will be the end of this.] Rory? He's... this foreign exchange student. But I think he has a crush on Finn, so it looks like I don't have a chance.